What you seek, you will find.
Even subconsciously if you’re repeating a dialogue not only will you start to believe what you are telling yourself repeatedly BUT you’ll also search out evidence of it’s truth. It’s confirmation bias. We are looking for the nod that what we believe is true.
My dialogue had gone along the lines of I’m not making any progress and things like I’m stuck in a post injury place. I was convinced that I was stuck. I was frustrated that I was trusting the process (or so I was telling myself) and that the progress wasn’t yielding any results.
BUT I wasn’t really trusting the process. I was showing up for the process but that was all I was doing and I was exhausting myself with attempting to trust the process. I took a week away. I hit the trails and avoided any structure in my training. Trails are lovely in that minutes per mile no longer matter because the terrain is varied and there’s no expectation on how fast you cover the ground. I needed to move my mind away from any focus for a short while. It was only a week.
The week away resulted in the epiphany as we drew towards Blaydon Races. The epiphany was that was seeking evidence that I wasn’t making progress, that I had stagnated and that nothing was working. Was that the truth or was that a big fat lie??? Well, there was an element of truth to it on the basis that my easy runs weren’t getting easier or quicker, resting heart rate wasn’t changing, there wasn’t much evidence hanging around as to progress BUT that was because that was what I expected. Expectation created results.
So the week before Blaydon I’m making a change. I’m switching what I expect. I’ll document the comeback chronicles and let’s see how we go!!
